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domainless) wrote2021-03-12 07:29 pm
domainless) wrote2021-03-12 07:29 pm
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Martin is away from the phone right now. Pleas leave a message and he'll get back to you.
...I suppose there's a chance.
But don't do anything stupid, alright? I know you want to help people but don't- don't die, okay? You don't have to traumatise yourself.
But don't do anything stupid, alright? I know you want to help people but don't- don't die, okay? You don't have to traumatise yourself.
I won't die.
[He can't stay dead for long here, anyway.]
I promise.
[Jon says nothing about traumatizing himself.]
[He can't stay dead for long here, anyway.]
I promise.
[Jon says nothing about traumatizing himself.]
[He hates that that is probably the best he'll get from Jon.]
Thank you. I don't- it hurts me when you're suffering. And I know I'm not that important but... I just want you to be safe.
Thank you. I don't- it hurts me when you're suffering. And I know I'm not that important but... I just want you to be safe.
[There's a part of him that knows Martin is being manipulative now. That he's digging in the screws on Jon's guilt to keep him reined in, to stop him from going too far. He's too exhausted to fight it.]
You're the most important person in my life, Martin.
[His words are quiet, defeated, before he stands up and moves to his desk to turn on his laptop and start working.]
You're the most important person in my life, Martin.
[His words are quiet, defeated, before he stands up and moves to his desk to turn on his laptop and start working.]
[Maybe he is. Even Martin wouldn't deny it. He doesn't want Jon to get hurt. Jon is important.
He sighs softly.]
I love you.
He sighs softly.]
I love you.
...is it so bad, to be worried about you?
[Because Jon always seems to hate it.
[Because Jon always seems to hate it.
[Jon closes his eyes.]
I need to work on this, Martin.
I need to work on this, Martin.
[Not long after this post Martin will get a phone call from Tim. The man wishes to say he's sorry now that the city has removed it's claws from his mind once more. He won't blame Martin if the man doesn't pick up, but he's hoping that he will. There's always a written message if he doesn't.]
[Martin does pick up the phone after a couple of rings. He feels... bad about what he'd said to Tim, but also probably not as bad as he should.]
Hey Tim.
Hey Tim.
M-Martin! [He was just about to hang up.] I mean, h-- hey, Martin. How's--how's it going? [He stumbles a little as he quickly tries to recover from his surprise.]
Look, I'm calling because I wanted to properly apologize for the other day.
Look, I'm calling because I wanted to properly apologize for the other day.
Oh. Right.
It's fine. Don't worry about it. It was this place, right?
It's fine. Don't worry about it. It was this place, right?
I still shouldn't have said it. I didn't even think how what I said might hurt you. You don't deserve that.
Wasn't thrilled, but I was kind of a dick in return.
How about we agree we were both dicks, blame the city, and forgive each other?
...yeah. That seems like the best idea. I hate that it does this.
I do too, but if we let this place get the best of us then we let it win. So I promise not to hold what was said against you.
I don't think it's about 'letting it win'. It's still going to get to me.
What if I ask you not to beat yourself up over it. At least not for how you treated me.
I might be able to manage that. Are you gonna be okay?
Yeah, I will. I just made myself look like an ass. I'm more worried about Jon and Charlotte. I said some awful things about them.
You really did.
Jon will... Jon is Jon. He's probably thought worse about himself than anyone else could ever say.
Jon will... Jon is Jon. He's probably thought worse about himself than anyone else could ever say.
True, but I didn't need to add to it. Luckily Jon has you to fall back on these days when he needs someone to count on, huh? Although, I suppose, he always had you and he just didn't know it.
I mean, if he'd expected it when we'd first worked in the Archives I'd probably have told him to fuck off because he was a prick.
But... yeah. He's had me since he offered to let me stay in the Archives after Jane Prentiss.
...god my standards are low.
But... yeah. He's had me since he offered to let me stay in the Archives after Jane Prentiss.
...god my standards are low.
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