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Martin is away from the phone right now. Pleas leave a message and he'll get back to you.

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You make me smile a lot, Jon.

I did like that. I liked seeing you lose control a bit, and know it was something I'd done. But I don't want that if you hate it. I want you to feel good if we do things, not just suffer through it.

cw: reference to aphro, dubcon, and noncon

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I don't know.
It's hard to tell if I like it or not when there's usually aphrodisiacs.
The only other times I've lost control like that without them have been rather...
Fraught experiences.

It's all just a lot at once, difficult to process.
Maybe that's the point?
I feel best when I don't end up having to think much.
But it's hard to let go of thinking.
I'm sorry, Martin.
This isn't helpful.

Re: cw: reference to aphro, dubcon, and noncon

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No, no it's good! It's good to talk about it. We probably should talk about it properly.

Maybe when you aren't in a prison cell.

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[The response is a while in coming.]

Maybe.
Someone magicked himself into my cell to get rid of the spiders.
I think that might help with sleeping, so I can stop bothering you.
I told him I'd be his slave for a week for the favor.
So, I'll have to deal with that in the next while.
Just so you're aware.

[domainless]

What the fuck Jon!?!?

[compellingstatement]

It's fine.
He just wants someone to cook and clean for him.
We've done this before.

[domainless]

THAT DOESN'T MAKE THINGS BETTER JON.

[compellingstatement]

He came to get rid of the spiders.
And he's one of my victims, Martin.
I had to give him something.
I was the one who suggested it.
I'll be fine.

[domainless]

Just because that happened doesn't mean you should become someone's slave Jon!

Why would you suggest that?!

[compellingstatement]

I don't know!
He has a hanging swing in room he had me stay in last time.
I liked using it while I was reading.

[He'd sort of enjoyed being ordered around and lightly teased and disciplined, as well, but Jon doesn't know how to articulate that without it sounding peculiar.]

I can't take it back now.
He's a changeling.
It was a pledge, and he'll have to retaliate if I break my promise.

[domainless]

Jon you have so much money here and you could install a swing in our bedroom if you wanted!

Are you sure he's not just saying that to intimidate you into agreeing to things like this?

[compellingstatement]

I'm not wasting money on a swing, Martin.
Don't be ridiculous.

[Unless Martin wanted a swing... Jon could justify that to himself much more easily.]

And he's not intimidating me.
If anything, he has more reason to be afraid of me than I do of him.
If you're really that worried, you can talk to him about it.
His name is Jamie, and he goes by 'flower' on the network.

[domainless]

Jon, you aren't exactly paying London rents right now. Or struggling in any way. I think you can get a swing if you like it.


[Jon is allowed to have things he likes.]

Maybe I will. Talk to him I mean.

And you're too- you take too much on your own shoulders.

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[Jon doesn't respond to the swing comment. It feels far too self-indulgent to purchase something like that. He might not be struggling now, but things in Duplicity are rarely stable.]

You know better than most people what it's like for my victims.
How destructive constant nightmares can be.
'Too much' is never going to be enough.

[domainless]

[Well, Martin is definitely getting Jon a swing now.]

I know, I know what happens. But it doesn't mean that you have to constantly put yourself through hell to stone for things.

[compellingstatement]

[Jon just sighs to himself.]

Providing someone a service in return for a service isn't putting myself through hell.
It's just being responsible.

[Like he's supposed to be.]

The worst he might make me do is show him my underwear.
He doesn't do anything about it if I tell him not to touch me, though.

[domainless]

I just worry about you.

You shouldn't have to worry about whether someone is going to listen when you tell them you don't want to be touched, but I suppose that's even less of a guarantee here.

[compellingstatement]

[Jon refrains from letting his mind tread down darker paths.]

Jamie isn't like that.
He doesn't force me to do things, just helps if I'm being affected by something and ask him for it.

I worry about you, too, you know?
What the city's going to do to you.
The way it forced you into that marriage with Elias...

[domainless]

Right. Right if you say so. I- I trust you.

[He just doesn't always trust Jon to not do things he abhors out of a sense of duty or guilt.]

It wasn't great, but I got out of it okay, didn't I?

[compellingstatement]

Did you?
We never really talked about what he might have done to you, Martin.

[domainless]

I'm fine, Jon.

It wasn't the best few days of my life, but I've dealt with worse.

He didn't turn into thousands of worms and I didn't find any corpses.

[compellingstatement]

What did happen?
Elias wasn't particularly straightforward when I asked him.

[domainless]

I mean, I glared at him a lot. It was quite a nice hotel room. Sort of wish I'd been able to enjoy it more.

[compellingstatement]

He didn't try to touch you?

[domainless]

No. He didn't try anything.