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domainless) wrote2021-03-12 07:29 pm
domainless) wrote2021-03-12 07:29 pm
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Martin is away from the phone right now. Pleas leave a message and he'll get back to you.
...right. You're right. I guess it can't hurt to be be introduced to people.
It can't.
You do have to make quota, and I know I'm not much use for it.
Sorry.
You do have to make quota, and I know I'm not much use for it.
Sorry.
I hate that things are dictated by quota.
You know it's not- I love you. And not being into sex doesn't change that. You know that, right?
You know it's not- I love you. And not being into sex doesn't change that. You know that, right?
I know.
I love you, too, and none of it would even matter if we weren't here.
But we are, and it's something I should be helping you with.
I don't know.
It's not awful, I guess.
I can do more of it if it would make you happy?
I liked seeing you smile when we were doing the painting thing.
That was nice.
I love you, too, and none of it would even matter if we weren't here.
But we are, and it's something I should be helping you with.
I don't know.
It's not awful, I guess.
I can do more of it if it would make you happy?
I liked seeing you smile when we were doing the painting thing.
That was nice.
You make me smile a lot, Jon.
I did like that. I liked seeing you lose control a bit, and know it was something I'd done. But I don't want that if you hate it. I want you to feel good if we do things, not just suffer through it.
I did like that. I liked seeing you lose control a bit, and know it was something I'd done. But I don't want that if you hate it. I want you to feel good if we do things, not just suffer through it.
I don't know.
It's hard to tell if I like it or not when there's usually aphrodisiacs.
The only other times I've lost control like that without them have been rather...
Fraught experiences.
It's all just a lot at once, difficult to process.
Maybe that's the point?
I feel best when I don't end up having to think much.
But it's hard to let go of thinking.
I'm sorry, Martin.
This isn't helpful.
It's hard to tell if I like it or not when there's usually aphrodisiacs.
The only other times I've lost control like that without them have been rather...
Fraught experiences.
It's all just a lot at once, difficult to process.
Maybe that's the point?
I feel best when I don't end up having to think much.
But it's hard to let go of thinking.
I'm sorry, Martin.
This isn't helpful.
No, no it's good! It's good to talk about it. We probably should talk about it properly.
Maybe when you aren't in a prison cell.
Maybe when you aren't in a prison cell.
[The response is a while in coming.]
Maybe.
Someone magicked himself into my cell to get rid of the spiders.
I think that might help with sleeping, so I can stop bothering you.
I told him I'd be his slave for a week for the favor.
So, I'll have to deal with that in the next while.
Just so you're aware.
Maybe.
Someone magicked himself into my cell to get rid of the spiders.
I think that might help with sleeping, so I can stop bothering you.
I told him I'd be his slave for a week for the favor.
So, I'll have to deal with that in the next while.
Just so you're aware.
Edited 2021-05-14 18:16 (UTC)
It's fine.
He just wants someone to cook and clean for him.
We've done this before.
He just wants someone to cook and clean for him.
We've done this before.
He came to get rid of the spiders.
And he's one of my victims, Martin.
I had to give him something.
I was the one who suggested it.
I'll be fine.
And he's one of my victims, Martin.
I had to give him something.
I was the one who suggested it.
I'll be fine.
Just because that happened doesn't mean you should become someone's slave Jon!
Why would you suggest that?!
Why would you suggest that?!
I don't know!
He has a hanging swing in room he had me stay in last time.
I liked using it while I was reading.
[He'd sort of enjoyed being ordered around and lightly teased and disciplined, as well, but Jon doesn't know how to articulate that without it sounding peculiar.]
I can't take it back now.
He's a changeling.
It was a pledge, and he'll have to retaliate if I break my promise.
He has a hanging swing in room he had me stay in last time.
I liked using it while I was reading.
[He'd sort of enjoyed being ordered around and lightly teased and disciplined, as well, but Jon doesn't know how to articulate that without it sounding peculiar.]
I can't take it back now.
He's a changeling.
It was a pledge, and he'll have to retaliate if I break my promise.
Jon you have so much money here and you could install a swing in our bedroom if you wanted!
Are you sure he's not just saying that to intimidate you into agreeing to things like this?
Are you sure he's not just saying that to intimidate you into agreeing to things like this?
I'm not wasting money on a swing, Martin.
Don't be ridiculous.
[Unless Martin wanted a swing... Jon could justify that to himself much more easily.]
And he's not intimidating me.
If anything, he has more reason to be afraid of me than I do of him.
If you're really that worried, you can talk to him about it.
His name is Jamie, and he goes by 'flower' on the network.
Don't be ridiculous.
[Unless Martin wanted a swing... Jon could justify that to himself much more easily.]
And he's not intimidating me.
If anything, he has more reason to be afraid of me than I do of him.
If you're really that worried, you can talk to him about it.
His name is Jamie, and he goes by 'flower' on the network.
Jon, you aren't exactly paying London rents right now. Or struggling in any way. I think you can get a swing if you like it.
[Jon is allowed to have things he likes.]
Maybe I will. Talk to him I mean.
And you're too- you take too much on your own shoulders.
[Jon is allowed to have things he likes.]
Maybe I will. Talk to him I mean.
And you're too- you take too much on your own shoulders.
[Jon doesn't respond to the swing comment. It feels far too self-indulgent to purchase something like that. He might not be struggling now, but things in Duplicity are rarely stable.]
You know better than most people what it's like for my victims.
How destructive constant nightmares can be.
'Too much' is never going to be enough.
You know better than most people what it's like for my victims.
How destructive constant nightmares can be.
'Too much' is never going to be enough.
[Well, Martin is definitely getting Jon a swing now.]
I know, I know what happens. But it doesn't mean that you have to constantly put yourself through hell to stone for things.
I know, I know what happens. But it doesn't mean that you have to constantly put yourself through hell to stone for things.
[Jon just sighs to himself.]
Providing someone a service in return for a service isn't putting myself through hell.
It's just being responsible.
[Like he's supposed to be.]
The worst he might make me do is show him my underwear.
He doesn't do anything about it if I tell him not to touch me, though.
Providing someone a service in return for a service isn't putting myself through hell.
It's just being responsible.
[Like he's supposed to be.]
The worst he might make me do is show him my underwear.
He doesn't do anything about it if I tell him not to touch me, though.
I just worry about you.
You shouldn't have to worry about whether someone is going to listen when you tell them you don't want to be touched, but I suppose that's even less of a guarantee here.
You shouldn't have to worry about whether someone is going to listen when you tell them you don't want to be touched, but I suppose that's even less of a guarantee here.
[Jon refrains from letting his mind tread down darker paths.]
Jamie isn't like that.
He doesn't force me to do things, just helps if I'm being affected by something and ask him for it.
I worry about you, too, you know?
What the city's going to do to you.
The way it forced you into that marriage with Elias...
Jamie isn't like that.
He doesn't force me to do things, just helps if I'm being affected by something and ask him for it.
I worry about you, too, you know?
What the city's going to do to you.
The way it forced you into that marriage with Elias...
Right. Right if you say so. I- I trust you.
[He just doesn't always trust Jon to not do things he abhors out of a sense of duty or guilt.]
It wasn't great, but I got out of it okay, didn't I?
[He just doesn't always trust Jon to not do things he abhors out of a sense of duty or guilt.]
It wasn't great, but I got out of it okay, didn't I?
Did you?
We never really talked about what he might have done to you, Martin.
We never really talked about what he might have done to you, Martin.
I'm fine, Jon.
It wasn't the best few days of my life, but I've dealt with worse.
He didn't turn into thousands of worms and I didn't find any corpses.
It wasn't the best few days of my life, but I've dealt with worse.
He didn't turn into thousands of worms and I didn't find any corpses.
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