[Jon doesn't respond to the swing comment. It feels far too self-indulgent to purchase something like that. He might not be struggling now, but things in Duplicity are rarely stable.]
You know better than most people what it's like for my victims. How destructive constant nightmares can be. 'Too much' is never going to be enough.
You shouldn't have to worry about whether someone is going to listen when you tell them you don't want to be touched, but I suppose that's even less of a guarantee here.
I mean even just talking back to him. He could have you cited for that. I've tried to make sure our contract can shield you from the worst punishments, but I don't want to test it.
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You know better than most people what it's like for my victims.
How destructive constant nightmares can be.
'Too much' is never going to be enough.
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I know, I know what happens. But it doesn't mean that you have to constantly put yourself through hell to stone for things.
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Providing someone a service in return for a service isn't putting myself through hell.
It's just being responsible.
[Like he's supposed to be.]
The worst he might make me do is show him my underwear.
He doesn't do anything about it if I tell him not to touch me, though.
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You shouldn't have to worry about whether someone is going to listen when you tell them you don't want to be touched, but I suppose that's even less of a guarantee here.
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Jamie isn't like that.
He doesn't force me to do things, just helps if I'm being affected by something and ask him for it.
I worry about you, too, you know?
What the city's going to do to you.
The way it forced you into that marriage with Elias...
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[He just doesn't always trust Jon to not do things he abhors out of a sense of duty or guilt.]
It wasn't great, but I got out of it okay, didn't I?
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We never really talked about what he might have done to you, Martin.
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It wasn't the best few days of my life, but I've dealt with worse.
He didn't turn into thousands of worms and I didn't find any corpses.
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Elias wasn't particularly straightforward when I asked him.
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All right.
I'm glad he didn't hurt you.
I've been worried about that.
I know you can take care of yourself, Martin, but he's dangerous.
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I hadn't noticed. Not like he caused the apocalypse or anything!
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The situation here is even worse than at home.
He's a Dominant.
If you act out against him publicly, he could have you arrested.
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I know! I'm not exactly going to challenge him to a duel.
It's fine. He didn't hurt me or try anything.
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He could have you cited for that.
I've tried to make sure our contract can shield you from the worst punishments, but I don't want to test it.
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I know. I know and I'll try.
I'm more worried about what happens if you get arrested again or something.
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I'll try not to be, I promise.
I don't want you getting punished for my infractions.
I shouldn't have tried to fight the Guards.
I won't anymore.
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Just be careful, okay? I don't want you getting hurt or forced into more things you don't want.
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I love you.
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I will, too.
['Try' being the operative word here.]
I'll be home soon.
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I can't wait to see you again.