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domainless) wrote2021-03-12 07:29 pm
domainless) wrote2021-03-12 07:29 pm
Duplicity Inbox
Martin is away from the phone right now. Pleas leave a message and he'll get back to you.
Hello. Considering that a certain someone has made his reappearance, I thought it might be good for us to chat.
I imagine we have a mutual interest in keeping Jon from being hurt. Or hurting himself, honestly.
I imagine we have a mutual interest in keeping Jon from being hurt. Or hurting himself, honestly.
That might be a good idea actually. I've encountered him too.
And yeah. Also from hurting anyone else.
And yeah. Also from hurting anyone else.
And from hurting anyone else.
[....Frankly, that's less of Peter's concern but that's probably for Jon's own good too. And, he supposes, everyone else's.]
I haven't run into him THIS time, not yet.
You've known both of them longer than I have. Is there any particular strategy you recommend?
[....Frankly, that's less of Peter's concern but that's probably for Jon's own good too. And, he supposes, everyone else's.]
I haven't run into him THIS time, not yet.
You've known both of them longer than I have. Is there any particular strategy you recommend?
[Martin has seen what Jon can do, and also what it does to Jon when he hurts people. It's not entirely altruistic.]
Elias can see a lot of things, but he's not infallible. He can underestimate people. And he can be distracted if there's too much going on.
With Jon... I don't know. I mean, we could get Elias locked up in prison. That worked.
Elias can see a lot of things, but he's not infallible. He can underestimate people. And he can be distracted if there's too much going on.
With Jon... I don't know. I mean, we could get Elias locked up in prison. That worked.
[Jon doesn't trust his own judgment. He doesn't particularly trust Chris' either at the moment. Maybe he shouldn't be turning to Martin to make decisions for him, be the one to tell him 'no,' but he's always been a better person than Jon in the Archivist's own eyes. Peter and Agnes would likely be permissive. Tim would tell him no. Sasha wouldn't fully understand the situation. Martin, he's not as sure about. Maybe he can be objective?]
I need your help making a decision.
May I text you a conversation I'm having with someone else?
They want to give me a verbal Statement.
I want to take it.
I don't know if that's the right choice when I don't need it.
I need your help making a decision.
May I text you a conversation I'm having with someone else?
They want to give me a verbal Statement.
I want to take it.
I don't know if that's the right choice when I don't need it.
[His gut reaction is to say no, that Jon shouldn't be feeding on people. Except he's also got used to Jon just pulling statements out of air now, and tearing monsters apart.
The fact that Jon is asking is... good? He supposes.
Jon... alright, send me the conversation and I'll take a look.
The fact that Jon is asking is... good? He supposes.
Jon... alright, send me the conversation and I'll take a look.
[Jon sends screenshots of his conversation with Chris in rapid succession. He's trying to be good. He's trying so hard to be good. Telling himself Chris wants it is just an excuse, isn't it?]
He's a good person.
He's a good person.
[Martin takes his time reading the conversation. He wants to make sure he knows what's going on. And it's... he's angry honestly, at this person for putting this on Jon without knowing what he's really asking for.]
It isn't fair of him to put this on you.
And he doesn't know what he's really asking for. The hallucinations, fears turned to phobias.
It isn't fair of him to put this on you.
And he doesn't know what he's really asking for. The hallucinations, fears turned to phobias.
[Jon hadn't thought to warn about the hallucinations, but that's... an excellent point.]
He's trying to help his friend.
You'd do stupid things to help me.
[And vice versa.]
I'll tell him about the hallucinations.
I didn't think of that.
I could ask him to talk to a few of my other victims here?
They could warn him better than I can, maybe?
But what if he still wants it?
It's not a good thing.
I don't understand why people want it.
Why they keep forgiving me.
I'm torturing them every night, and they still want to be my friend.
They want me to make it worse.
What is wrong with them?
[All right, so maybe this is about a bit more than Chris...]
He's trying to help his friend.
You'd do stupid things to help me.
[And vice versa.]
I'll tell him about the hallucinations.
I didn't think of that.
I could ask him to talk to a few of my other victims here?
They could warn him better than I can, maybe?
But what if he still wants it?
It's not a good thing.
I don't understand why people want it.
Why they keep forgiving me.
I'm torturing them every night, and they still want to be my friend.
They want me to make it worse.
What is wrong with them?
[All right, so maybe this is about a bit more than Chris...]
Jon... hey...
Do you want to talk about this in person? Or is text easier?
I think he should have all the details and probably talk to- to someone else in this situation. And also I need you and him think about how doing this would make you feel. What if he decides actually it's awful?
Do you want to talk about this in person? Or is text easier?
I think he should have all the details and probably talk to- to someone else in this situation. And also I need you and him think about how doing this would make you feel. What if he decides actually it's awful?
[The mature thing would be to talk in-person. Jon doesn't feel like being particularly mature right now, but he knows it's the right thing to do, as well. He just needs to keep it together. He can do that.]
I'm in the archives.
How I might feel about it is irrelevant.
He's the one who's going to be suffering.
I'm in the archives.
How I might feel about it is irrelevant.
He's the one who's going to be suffering.
I'll come down there.
And it still isn't fair to use someone else to self-harm.
[And he does, as quickly as he can, bringing Jon a cup of tea and a biscuit because he probably needs it by now.]
And it still isn't fair to use someone else to self-harm.
[And he does, as quickly as he can, bringing Jon a cup of tea and a biscuit because he probably needs it by now.]
[Jon doesn't bother replying, just waits for Martin to get there. He reads and re-reads his text exchange with Chris in the intervening time, chewing on a pen hard enough that his teeth start to hurt.
Self-harm using other people. Peter had said something similar to him, hadn't he? That he didn't want Jon hurting himself with other people. It's frustrating when both his boyfriends make the same point at him in different contexts. That makes it harder to dismiss.
He looks up whenever Martin arrives, a faint smile touching his lips at the offerings.]
I'm not sure biscuits are going to make this any easier, Martin.
Self-harm using other people. Peter had said something similar to him, hadn't he? That he didn't want Jon hurting himself with other people. It's frustrating when both his boyfriends make the same point at him in different contexts. That makes it harder to dismiss.
He looks up whenever Martin arrives, a faint smile touching his lips at the offerings.]
I'm not sure biscuits are going to make this any easier, Martin.
[Martin smiles back at sets the cup down.]
Maybe, maybe not. But you've probably not eaten enough today so... biscuits.
Maybe, maybe not. But you've probably not eaten enough today so... biscuits.
[He huffs quietly and picks one up.]
People are... confusing here. Even more confusing than home. They're too quick to forgive. Most of them are horrifically traumatized in some way completely divorced from the Powers, but still supernatural.
[He shakes his head.]
I've only had a handful of people react like they ought to, to... me.
People are... confusing here. Even more confusing than home. They're too quick to forgive. Most of them are horrifically traumatized in some way completely divorced from the Powers, but still supernatural.
[He shakes his head.]
I've only had a handful of people react like they ought to, to... me.
[It makes him so sad, to hear Jon talking like this, like he's someone who everyone should just shun as a matter of course.]
Jon... you're not- you're not an awful person. And you aren't responsible for everyone who's been hurt by the supernatural, especially not here.
Jon... you're not- you're not an awful person. And you aren't responsible for everyone who's been hurt by the supernatural, especially not here.
I know. [Well, debatable, but not the point of this particular discussion.] That's not- I mean, I've fed on some of them and they still keep coming back to me. They're... sympathetic. Some have asked me to make the dreams worse for them. Or given me a Statement as some sort of-of bizarre punishment.
That's weird, right?
That's weird, right?
[Martin gives him a look.]
Jon, how many times have you put yourself through awful things because you thought you deserved it?
Jon, how many times have you put yourself through awful things because you thought you deserved it?
I don't put myself through things because I think I deserve them.
[The protest is accompanied by a scowl.]
It's to a purpose.
[The purposes are just... a bit flimsy sometimes.]
[The protest is accompanied by a scowl.]
It's to a purpose.
[The purposes are just... a bit flimsy sometimes.]
[Martin gives him a look. He knows Jon. He knows what Jon does. He hadn't been as absent as perhaps everyone thought when he was working with Peter.]
And I bet everyone who wants you to make it worse here also has a 'purpose'.
And I bet everyone who wants you to make it worse here also has a 'purpose'.
[Jon just clicks his tongue and looks away, grabbing up the tea to drink. He doesn't have a good argument for that straight off and it's frustrating.]
So, you think I should do this for Chris, then? He has a purpose.
So, you think I should do this for Chris, then? He has a purpose.
No! I still think it's using you to self harm and I don't think that's healthy.
I don't think it's healthy when you put yourself through terrible things either. After- you would listen to some tapes in the safe house. Over and over again, even if it hurt you.
I don't think it's healthy when you put yourself through terrible things either. After- you would listen to some tapes in the safe house. Over and over again, even if it hurt you.
Maybe they were things I needed to hear.
[The words are sharp, much sharper than they need to be or should. Jon takes a deep breath and breathes out through his nose.]
I'm sorry. That was- I'm just... frustrated. I'll tell Chris no for now. Not until he's thought about it more and talked to a few people.
[The words are sharp, much sharper than they need to be or should. Jon takes a deep breath and breathes out through his nose.]
I'm sorry. That was- I'm just... frustrated. I'll tell Chris no for now. Not until he's thought about it more and talked to a few people.
That did actually happen once before. His being imprisoned. He had blackmailed Jon into a sort of unofficial contract and was eventually taken into custody when the authorities found out.
He also promptly disappeared entirely.
It might be difficult to engineer his arrest a second time but we can always keep our ears open.
I suppose it's really a matter of not allowing him to gain any more power over Jon, isn't it?
He also promptly disappeared entirely.
It might be difficult to engineer his arrest a second time but we can always keep our ears open.
I suppose it's really a matter of not allowing him to gain any more power over Jon, isn't it?
[Duplicity just has it out for everybody. Sorry, Martin. Very.]
Remember that time I went to Exeter for 4 hours, got hammered, cried for an hour, and then left?
I need a billion tiny bottles of booze for a pinata.
Remember that time I went to Exeter for 4 hours, got hammered, cried for an hour, and then left?
I need a billion tiny bottles of booze for a pinata.
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