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Martin is away from the phone right now. Pleas leave a message and he'll get back to you.

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[Martin lets out a soft breath, and reaches out to rest his hand against Jon's back, and lightly strokes against it.]

I know. You know, that's part of how I know you're a good person, even if you don't believe it.

A bad person, an evil person, wouldn't care.

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[A part of him wants so badly to crumple, to press himself to Martin and just let himself be held for a while.

Jon stays where he is.]

A good person wouldn't have done it in the first place.

[He's not going to let that go. Feeling guilty about it after doesn't actually change what he'd done, after all.]

I should... I need to do some research. Check through the network for any other options apart from an employment contract. You should talk to her, if you can. I told her it might be for the best. You know more about... everything than Tim or Sasha.

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[He keeps up those gentle touches. Even if Jon won't let himself lean against him, he's still going to offer that comfort.]

Are there options here? I can't imagine anything in this place is going to be as easy as that. You know what it's like.

[Horrible prices that he knows Jon will torture himself with.]

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[The touch is a reminder of why he's so in love with this man. It's not something he's afraid of, even if he doesn't think he particularly deserves it. And that's something.]

I don't know. That's why I'm going to look. There are people from different worlds here with different powers, different... higher powers. Maybe there's something.

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...I suppose there's a chance.

But don't do anything stupid, alright? I know you want to help people but don't- don't die, okay? You don't have to traumatise yourself.

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I won't die.

[He can't stay dead for long here, anyway.]

I promise.

[Jon says nothing about traumatizing himself.]

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[He hates that that is probably the best he'll get from Jon.]

Thank you. I don't- it hurts me when you're suffering. And I know I'm not that important but... I just want you to be safe.

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[There's a part of him that knows Martin is being manipulative now. That he's digging in the screws on Jon's guilt to keep him reined in, to stop him from going too far. He's too exhausted to fight it.]

You're the most important person in my life, Martin.

[His words are quiet, defeated, before he stands up and moves to his desk to turn on his laptop and start working.]

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[Maybe he is. Even Martin wouldn't deny it. He doesn't want Jon to get hurt. Jon is important.

He sighs softly.]

I love you.

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[There's a returned sigh.]

Love you.

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...is it so bad, to be worried about you?

[Because Jon always seems to hate it.

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[Jon closes his eyes.]

I need to work on this, Martin.

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...right. Right, sorry. I'll just- yeah.